Here’s what’s been on my mind tonight,

I was journaling tonight and felt like letting everyone know what’s been running through my head.

This is one of the things I’ve been thinking about the most, so I wrote it.

It hit me: if I fail, I lose everything I dream about.

The apartment. The car. The freedom. Gone.

I’m only 15, but I feel like I’m already running out of time.

It’s harsh, but it’s the truth.

I don’t just want money or success.

I want to be better.

A better son. A better grandson. A better friend. A better human.

Some days I feel close. Other days, I know I’ve got a long way to go.

You only ever see 20% of what’s in my head, .

The rest gets trapped in that war between hope and doubt.

What if this video blows up?

What if it dies with less than 1,000 views?

I need this to work.

Not just for me, but for my family.

Because the truth is, I’ve been given more than most.

My father handed me knowledge that people spend lifetimes chasing.

It feels like he placed it in my hands and said: “Take this further than I ever could.”

That’s why I push myself so hard.

It’s not just ambition.

It’s responsibility.

And responsibility doesn’t care if I’m tired.

It doesn’t care if I’m 15.

It doesn’t care if the odds are stacked against me.

So I’ll keep pushing, .

Because failing doesn’t just mean losing my dream.

It means letting down the people who built me.

And that’s something I refuse to do.

Talk soon,

Yousaf